Splash Pad

It's been pretty hot the past few days so I decided to take Talmage to the Splash Pad at the San Tan Mall. The water was pretty cold but Talmage loved it!

Talmage and Daddy Sword Fighting

This morning I recorded Talmage sword fighting with his daddy. He's growing up so much! I was surprised by how good he is at it!

Photos of Talmage

The Duck

Last night we found a duck in our front yard, sitting in the grass. A real live DUCK! Talmage was so fascinating by it. Jacob put some gloves on so he could hold it and show Talmage it up close. Then, we left him in our yard, ran an errand and when we came...no duck. Talmage got out of the car and ran over to the grass to see if he was still there. It was so cute!

Disneyland

We left for Disneyland on February 9, 2010 after Jacob came home from work. We rented a car the night before so we wouldn't have to worry about our car having problems. That night, we stayed at Del Sol Inn, which is directly across the street from Disneyland. It wasn't the best hotel but it was ok. The next morning we woke up early, ate at Denny's and walked on over to Disneyland. We went to Disneyland a total of 4 days. The following two nights we stayed at the Hilton. It was so nice!! We had them vallet our car and bring us our luggage. We even ordered dinner to be delivered to our room! We spent time at the pool and spa too. We felt so rich. I'm so glad we did it though because it was so much fun! The last night we were there we stayed practically across the street at Fairfield Inn by Marriot. It was nice but not nearly as nice as the Hilton. So, we went to Disneyland on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and half of Saturday. Talmage had a blast! I'm so glad we took him. Last time we went to Disneyland, I was pregnant with Talmage so it was a lot of fun to be able to ride EVERYTHING! I loved spending time with just Jacob and Talmage and making our own family memories. Enjoy the pictures!

Why...

I know I am so blessed but sometimes life can be hard. I know of so many other people who have it way harder than me but it's still hard, at least to me. Sometimes I just get a bunch of "why" questions running through my head. I'm so grateful I have Talmage. He cheers me up and lightens my moods. I love him and Jacob. They are such blessings in my life.

But, I still ache for another baby. I find myself still counting the weeks that I would've been pregnant. I'd be showing and in the second trimester. I know I shouldn't think of these things but it's hard not too.

It's so hard for me. It took us 12 months to get pregnant and now I have to start all over again. And my "why" questions start...

Why can't I just be normal?
Why can't I be fertile?
Why can a teenager get pregnant their first time but it takes me a year?
Why did I lose my baby?
Why is everyone pregnant but me?
Etc...

I guess General Conference is coming at the perfect for me!

I can't find my camera!

I have been slacking lately on my posts. Sorry! I lost my camera...again. Last time, I just lost the charger but now I've managed to lose the whole camera!


We went to Disneyland in February and had a BLAST! Last time I went to Disneyland, I was pregnant with Talmage so it was very exciting to be able to ride the rides and not be soooo tired! Talmage had so much fun! He rode on most of the rides except the roller coasters which were only a few. Once I hopefully find my camera, I'll post pictures..real live ones...soon!


I am enjoying my spring break this week!! I have no school and no piano. I'm free to just be a mom and housewife. Yesterday, Talmage and I went to the park...twice! Once during the day and once when daddy got home. I also started working out this week. I thought it was the best time to start since I have no excuses. Hopefully I can keep up with it.

I am doing really well since the miscarriage. Everything went very smooth. Now we are just waiting on the day when we can say we're pregnant again. It's definately hard waiting. I'm usually a patient person but when it comes to trying to get pregnant...I'm not! I get sooo excited and anxious. Wish us luck! Afterall, today is St. Patricks Day!!

Happy 3 yr Anniversary!

March 10, 2007 my life began. I love being married to my best friend...forever! We've had the best and most wonderful 3 years. I am so lucky to be married to such a kind, loving, sensitive and thoughtful husband. He is the best daddy ever! Last night he came home from work with a dozen red roses, a card and chocolates. Then he set up a babysitter (my mom) for us today to go do sealings. I'm so lucky! I love you hubby!!!