Thursday, March 25, 2010


I know I am so blessed but sometimes life can be hard. I know of so many other people who have it way harder than me but it's still hard, at least to me. Sometimes I just get a bunch of "why" questions running through my head. I'm so grateful I have Talmage. He cheers me up and lightens my moods. I love him and Jacob. They are such blessings in my life.

But, I still ache for another baby. I find myself still counting the weeks that I would've been pregnant. I'd be showing and in the second trimester. I know I shouldn't think of these things but it's hard not too.

It's so hard for me. It took us 12 months to get pregnant and now I have to start all over again. And my "why" questions start...

Why can't I just be normal?
Why can't I be fertile?
Why can a teenager get pregnant their first time but it takes me a year?
Why did I lose my baby?
Why is everyone pregnant but me?

I guess General Conference is coming at the perfect for me!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I can't find my camera!

I have been slacking lately on my posts. Sorry! I lost my camera...again. Last time, I just lost the charger but now I've managed to lose the whole camera!

We went to Disneyland in February and had a BLAST! Last time I went to Disneyland, I was pregnant with Talmage so it was very exciting to be able to ride the rides and not be soooo tired! Talmage had so much fun! He rode on most of the rides except the roller coasters which were only a few. Once I hopefully find my camera, I'll post pictures..real live ones...soon!

I am enjoying my spring break this week!! I have no school and no piano. I'm free to just be a mom and housewife. Yesterday, Talmage and I went to the park...twice! Once during the day and once when daddy got home. I also started working out this week. I thought it was the best time to start since I have no excuses. Hopefully I can keep up with it.

I am doing really well since the miscarriage. Everything went very smooth. Now we are just waiting on the day when we can say we're pregnant again. It's definately hard waiting. I'm usually a patient person but when it comes to trying to get pregnant...I'm not! I get sooo excited and anxious. Wish us luck! Afterall, today is St. Patricks Day!!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Happy 3 yr Anniversary!

March 10, 2007 my life began. I love being married to my best friend...forever! We've had the best and most wonderful 3 years. I am so lucky to be married to such a kind, loving, sensitive and thoughtful husband. He is the best daddy ever! Last night he came home from work with a dozen red roses, a card and chocolates. Then he set up a babysitter (my mom) for us today to go do sealings. I'm so lucky! I love you hubby!!!